Sunday, October 21, 2007

Brittany

Brittany as Bonnie in Anything Goes; Heaven Hop:

Sunday, October 07, 2007

A Rambling of Transition

Sometimes in my life I feel like I'm in a state of transition. It lasts anywhere from a few days to a few weeks, to a few months. Although life is moving on as it usually does, I feel as if I'm supposed to be doing something greater, something more.
Today was General Conference for the church. I love hearing the prophet's and other leaders' inspired words. I love the feeling they bring: a feeling of, well, inspiration. An inspiration to do something more, to serve others, to seek out perfection and become like our brother, who so altruistically gave is life that we may live with Father again.
Now, a thought or two on these renewed feelings: I want to serve others. I know I am happiest when I serve others. Sometimes, though, it seems that I really have to try to find ways to serve others... they don't just come along anymore. Of course, when I was younger, there were always such opportunities that came along. I could go rake leaves or plow a neighbor's driveway. I never truly realized how many opportunities the Boy Scouts gave me to serve my brothers and sisters.
I have a renewed gratitude for life, the Spirit, my body, and all else that I have been blessed with.
I love life. I'm so grateful for all that I've been blessed with. I am grateful for my family, my friends, my ability to learn and apply new knowledge, concepts, dreams, and doctrine. I often think I have a unique perspective on life. I feel older than most people spiritually.
Now, back to this state of transition. It's sad, but I feel that I've been closer with my Father in heaven. My perception of closeness to my Father would be described like a magnet. The closer I get, the more desire I have to become even closer. The further I get, the less inclined I am to do good. I am a good person, I want to be good and I want to do good. To achieve these, this closeness and goodness, takes work. Just like everything in life, things don't just happen, we make them happen.
As I grow older, I've noticed the adversary is working harder to tear me down; and not just me, but anyone who is good. A talk in conference discussed how things that were frowned upon ten years ago are commonplace today. I realize I need to push forward, work harder, and make a conscious effort to radiate light and truth.
I don't know how long this state of transition will last, however, I do know, that after it, I will be stronger and have an even deeper desire to serve the Lord.